That’s what I’m wondering. I’m dreaming of soft backgrounds, when I combine these bold photos with MY techniques, however I have no idea how that’s going to happen. I’ve got great contrast and colors going on right now. But they won’t even show by the time I’m through. These backgrounds will become important subtleties to their future selves, this much I know. Other than that, I’m not sure where I’m headed here.
I suppose we could say this for all of life – that bold moves make for a great life. Stepping out of mediocrity into the great unknown – beyond this comfy couch and daily routines – must have its splendor. But I think it takes being willing to take that STEP. Meaning, without being able to see what’s next. To commit to just moving ahead. And trusting.
However I don’t believe in blind stepping. I think it’s crucial to allow time and space for dreaming. The dream forms the picture we walk towards – a soft direction. Maybe that’s crap, maybe there’s no control, maybe I shouldn’t even have a vague notion of what I want in the future.
But I find journals from years past that are my voice, years ago, asking for what I have accomplished today. So I can’t help but think that the dream leads us. Or maybe we just know what we want all along.
As I move forward in my painting with all these choices, I’m sure I’ll be either very confused, or make some really interesting art. At the very least, I will feel good if I have at least been bold with this one precious life.
“When it’s over, I want to say: all my life
I was a bride married to amazement.
I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.
When it is over, I don’t want to wonder
if I have made of my life something particular, and real.
I don’t want to find myself sighing and frightened,
or full of argument.
I don’t want to end up simply having visited this world.”
― Mary Oliver